This morning, we got up and played a little Mario before we had to head to my hair appointment. After that we grabbed lunch and headed to a mermaid photoshoot that Ms Tammy asked you to model for. It was soooo cute I can’t wait to see the pictures!
We visited Ms Sandy and her mom for a bit after. You had so much fun playing with Malibu and making Snaps with Sandy!
Didn’t want me to leave you at camp. Then at pickup you wouldn’t come out with the counselors. You told me you were sad that our house is boring because you don’t have a sibling. I got you to the car. We talked through your feelings. I let you know since you weren’t listening we couldn’t go to Livingstons as planned. You wanted to know if Olivia could still come over. I told you I would have to calm down first then decide.
on the way home I stopped at Whole Foods and then I had to take a work call. You fell asleep on the console of my car waiting for you. Exhausted. Hot. Dangerous combo. That explains why you weren’t at your best at camp!
I allowed her to come. We had tacos for dinner then you guys jumped in the pool. All was well until sharing the Leto bricks went sideways. daddy asked what was going on and called your name. You shouted “what???” In a super snotty voice so he ended the playdate. Both you and Olivia were crying. I took you up to shower and got you calmed down. We g
had a snack and played a little Mario as a family then headed to bed. You were wiggly and not wanting to sleep at all. It was almost 10p before you finally fell asleep!
Drop off today at basketball camp went much better today which honestly surprised me a little because I thought you would be tired after going to bed late last night! When I picked you up you were happy and had a good day. We stopped at Publix to get groceries for dinner (you scammed two donuts and a cookie) one of which you ate in the store! Then we stopped at Kilwin‘s on the way to the condo! When we got there Jimmeys cousins were leaving and he was crying hysterically. You tried to console him and hug him. It was so sweet to see you so concerned for him. You sent Burt a voice text saying that he could text us when they finished so you could help Jimmey calm down more. You lounged around watching TV while I was making dinner waiting anxiously for Jimmey to come. When Daddy got home, we ate then headed down to the beach to play frisbee and watch the sunset. You also jumped in the pool. We had a fun night. Of course you never want the fun to end so when it was time to shower you were disappointed but cooperative. After the shower you and Daddy played Mario for a little bit. When I shut that down you got really mad at me & you were crying while brushing your teeth because you didn’t want to stop playing. I came in to tell you when you finished brushing and climbed in bed you & I could play for a few minutes. You came to bed and we played for about 15 minutes. When I asked you to turn the Switch off you got really mad & cried again. I told you I gave you more time than we agreed and you said “that will never help, don’t ever give me more time!” I just laid there quietly because I knew you were just exhausted. You decided to go to your room and told me if I needed you I could come there lol.
I gave you some space and came in about 10 minutes later to ask if I could lay with you and snuggle. You said of course. You snuggled up to my face, gave me a huge hug and said “I love you Mama.” You were snoring in 2 minutes. I try to keep my cool when you are tired and upset like this because it just seems to pass more quickly. When you calm back down I always want you to feel how much I love you…
I love you so much!
Sadly, the day we have been dreading for months has come. We had to help Harold cross the rainbow bridge. You were so good about it. We met Aunt Deb and Fed at Dr. Tudin’s office. We all loved on Harold and told him goodbye. You wanted to stay in the room, but Dr. Tudin asked everyone to leave. I stayed with him and you went out with Daddy & Aunt Deb. When I came out you asked me to explain what happened, so I did. We sat in the parking lot for about 30 minutes or so and you kept asking to go inside to see Harold. We didn’t although I thought it might help you to see how incredibly peaceful he looked. In fact, he hadn’t looked that peaceful even sleeping in his dog bed for some time. It was actually beautiful to see. I let you ride in Fed’s car and we went to Starbucks to all regroup a little bit. You guys had pink drinks and played Pokemon on Fed’s phone.
We left after about an hour to head to your class field trip at Mote Marine. I was chaperoning. I asked you before going if you still wanted to go and you said yes. I was hoping it would take your mind off of what happened. At first, it was great. You were telling all the kids “my dog Harold had a tumor. It was cancer so he had to go to the rainbow bridge.” All the kids were so kind and supportive to you. One girl told you “my dog Max died. Whenever I feel scared or nervous, I just believe in myself and say I will do this for Max.” It absolutely melted my heart. Unfortunately, when we broke for lunch you became really sad and started to fall apart. You wanted to be alone and sat by yourself, even laying down in the grass. My heart was breaking. I felt like I had made a mistake even bringing you to the field trip at all. Ms. Marchese saw you were struggling and told me we could leave so we did. I offered to stop at Kilwin’s on the way home but you said “believe it or not, I don’t even want ice cream.” As we drove by, you said “but I will take Meanie’s mini-donuts!” I had already driven by and you said “that’s ok we are already passed it.” I wasn’t letting that stop us. I found a parking spot and backed up to take it before it was too late. Unfortunately, you only ate one donut. It was just so sad and heavy. I asked if you wanted to stop at the beach or bay front, but you just wanted to go home, so we did. When we got home, I asked if you wanted to get in the pool or hottub or snuggle on the couch. You just wanted to get in my bed and snuggle so we did. We snuggled for about 90 minutes then we got up and went to Whole Foods. You asked for every kind of gummy candy you could find and of course I said yes. You even asked me “are you just saying yes because I lost my dog?” I said absolutely! I would have done anything to ease your pain at all.
We went home to have dinner and snuggle. It was a terribly difficult day but Harold was ready. He was tired. And he was such a sweet boy that I’m happy he’s not in pain.
I love you so much.
The last few months have been really busy and exciting with our move and getting settled in the house. I haven’t had the opportunity to write to you every night but it was time to get back to it.
This morning we had bunny photos with Ms. Tammy in Port Charlotte. As soon as we pulled in the parking lot, you remembered immediately that the bunnies would be here! You were so excited to see them and play with them.
Fed directed Ride the Cyclone musical in his backyard theater. The content was a little mature for you, so you stayed home with Daddy and I went to his show with Grandma Weezie. It was amazing, I wish you could have seen it.
We left after Fed’s show to drive to Ft. Lauderdale for our cruise tomorrow.
field day
