Ms. Sandy sent me some cute pictures of you having fun playing with the water doodle mat that Jackie got you. Shortly after that, I received confirmation that my HcG numbers were dropping and we had a chemical pregnancy. I’m glad I found out at work, so I could lose it and regain my composure before I saw you.
When I got home from work you said “Mama, I know you had a sad day so I’m going to give you lots of hugs and love!” Of course, this immediately had me welling up with tears. Your compassion is one of your most admirable traits. You make my heart explode with love. I’m so devastated because I know how much you want a sibling and what a great big sister you would be. I hate that this isn’t happening. I’m glad you don’t know what we are going through.
Daddy wanted to take us to dinner, so we went to the Cheesecake Factory. On the way home, you wanted to stop by Grandma Weezie’s house to say hi. You said, “Grandma Weezie is gonna pee her pants if you say that to her. For real!”
When we got home Ms. Moe was waking by. You jumped out of the car and ran to give her a hug and show her your huge palm frond. She wanna cracking you laughing.
We went inside to get ready for bed. Daddy and I were in your room talking. You came in and said “Daddy, I turned on the news for you so we can watch TV in your bed.” Often when you are talking about music, you will say, “Mom, that’s your jam. The news is Daddy’s jam!” You are always looking for a way to get back into my bed! I love it though and I wouldn’t have it any other way. We still went to bed in your room, but I definitely needed the extra snuggles tonight. I’m always feeling so lucky that you are in our life. If we don’t have another baby, you are way more than enough for our hearts. I just want to give you the sibling you have always asked for.
I love you so much!!!
