6/22/22

This break so far has honestly been a little tough. You are really on an emotional roller coaster and I’m not certain how to best help you work through your feelings. I get upset when you talk back and that escalates everything. Today when I picked you up from circus camp, before you even said hello to me you said “I’m mad at you.” When I asked why, you finally let me know it was because I didn’t pack your sour gummy rings in your lunch. The ride home was fine, but you started up again being rough with Hank. When I asked you to stop touching him like that you stormed off and told me how mean I am and how you want to live somewhere else. I KNOW that only going really quiet actually works with you, but man is it hard. I don’t want to spend the break arguing but it seems to be all you want. I feel so bad. I love you so much and I want to have fun with you. I’m sure this is just a season, but I want so badly to help you become a happy healthy person. I don’t want to go easy on you and have you suffer later, but I also want to give you the space and grace to be little and emotional. I feel so torn. I want you to be accountable and responsible for your actions. I also want you to feel safe to trust me with anything, especially when you have had a bad day. When I got quiet you went to your room and asked Alexa how to help you spell “I’m sorry for not listening to your directions” so you could write me a card.

6/21/22

You slept in too late to tell Daddy happy birthday

ran out of circus camp. Rikki called and you asked me to Facetime. You wanted to go home. I told you I would come pick you up but we won’t be going on our Florida trip if I can’t work. You told me “fine, I’ll stay.”

Took Daddy to DaRuMa for dinner.

6/15/22 – Trolley In The Rain

Ms. Rikki called from Circus Camp and said you were a little handsy with a girl in your group. She kindly asked me how we should handle it. I was surprised it was a girl and not Benjamin Berlin. We talked about it after camp and I hope we don’t have any more problems going forward.

I brought Hank to pick you up & you were so happy when you got in the car and saw him. We went home & played restaurant. You brought me a menu, I had to write down my order, my phone number & address, then you cooked and served me. We had a snack and then went to pick up my jewelry and pet Ruby at Milan’s. We got in the car to go to Whole Foods & you ended up asking for pizza at La Mucca Ballerina so we got back out of the car and stopped for another bite! While we were at dinner, a man in a wheelchair went by who had a tracheostomy. You were immediately asking about it so I promised you we could watch a YouTube video about it later. We rode the trolley to St. Armands for a macaroon and ice cream. It poured on the way back so I carried you from the trolley to the car. You were so happy you didn’t have to walk in it! When we got home, we showered and Facetimed Grandma Noot. You were naked walking in my heels singing and dancing. She was cracking up. We headed to your room to watch a YouTube video about Tracheostomies. You were fascinated. A little meditation and you were out!

I love you so much!